“Mom.”
“Just one more, sweetheart.”
The saleswoman gave her a slow once-over, mouth tightening at the corners.
The old nickname almost slipped out, but I caught it before it could wound her. That word belonged to Mason. Only Mason.
The boutique on Maple had a gown in the window I had already pictured on her. Ivory, soft, romantic. Hazel stood in front of the glass for a long moment, and then, in a voice I had not heard in a year, she asked, “Could I try the one in the window?”
The saleswoman gave her a slow once-over, mouth tightening at the corners.
“That’s not going to work for you, honey. You’re too big.”
That was all. No softening. No apology.
Hazel didn’t cry. She did not argue. She turned around, walked through the door, and got into the passenger seat of my car. I followed her, my hands shaking on the keys.
She stared straight ahead the whole way home.
“Hazel, I am so sorry. I am going to go back in there and—”
“Please drive.”
“Sweetheart—”
“Please. Just drive.”
She stared straight ahead the whole way home. I kept glancing at her, waiting for the break, the tears, anything. Nothing came. That scared me more than sobbing would have.
She walked into the house, climbed the stairs, and closed her bedroom door. I heard the lock click.
I pressed my forehead against the door and cried as quietly as I could.
I went up after her. I sat on the carpet outside her room, my back against the wood.
“Hazel. Open the door. Please.”
“I’m not going to prom, Mom.”
“Honey, we can find something. We can sew something ourselves, we can—”
“Mom. Stop.” Her voice was flat, exhausted. “I’m not going. Please just stop trying.”
I pressed my forehead against the door and cried as quietly as I could. I had buried one child. I could feel the second one slipping away through the gap under the door, and I had no idea how to hold on.
I opened the door in yesterday’s clothes.
I do not know how long I sat there. Long enough that my legs went numb. Long enough that the light in the hallway changed.
A few days later, there was a knock.
I opened the door in yesterday’s clothes. Eli stood on the porch in a faded hoodie, holding a small notebook against his chest. He looked nervous. He also looked decided, which was new on him.
“Mrs. Mave. Can I talk to you out here?”
I stepped onto the porch and pulled the door shut behind me.
“Is Hazel okay? Did she text you?”
I stared at this boy I had watched grow up two houses down.
“No, ma’am.” He took a breath. “I need her measurements.”
“Eli, what—”
“Prom is in two weeks. I can do this. I know how that sounds. But I need you to trust me. And I need you not to tell her anything. Not one word.”
I stared at this boy I had watched grow up two houses down. Seventeen years old. Bitten fingernails. Holding a notebook like it was a contract.
“Eli, you have never made a dress like this in your life.”
That night, I stood at my kitchen window and watched the light in Eli’s bedroom burn long past three in the morning.
“No, ma’am. I haven’t.”
“Then how—”
“I just need you to say yes.”
I almost said no. I had every reason. But there was something in his eyes that did not belong to a seventeen-year-old. Something steadier than I had felt in a year.
“Yes,” I whispered.
That night, I stood at my kitchen window and watched the light in Eli’s bedroom burn long past three in the morning, and I wondered what on earth I had just agreed to.
His mother called me on day three.
The light in Eli’s bedroom window became my new clock.
Past midnight, past two, past three. Some nights I stood at my kitchen sink and watched it burn while the rest of the street slept.
His mother called me on day three.
“Mave, his fingers are sore,” she said. “I wrapped them in cold bandages, and he unwrapped them. He missed a chemistry test.”
“Should I stop him?”
“I don’t think anything could,” she said quietly. “He’s been at th
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